Excitement and Unwarranted Anxiety

So, now I have finally arrived at a day I almost never dared to dream would come true. Due to my tenacious attitude towards it, though, I knew it would happen. Now that it is here, it's a little surreal.

I've arrived at my last day of school.

Needless to say, I'm very excited about that and to finish this path that has fairly dominated 1/4 of my life up until now. My anxiety comes from a very minor thing and has been something that always brings anxiety in every class: finals. Now to most of you it will come to no surprise that I keep a spreadsheet of my grades throughout the semester and I know precisely how I'm doing based on the weights the teachers assign to homework, quizzes, exams, finals, etc. So a couple of weeks ago I came across a very rewarding realization on this class. With the way she will drop your lowest scoring exam or quiz, I cannot fail the class. That realization was a HUGE relief. It prompted an evening at home with a couple of beers and wanton videogame-based destruction via Borderlands with some friends. So now I arrive at finals time knowing that if I get a 21% on my final, I will get an A still.  Unwarranted anxiety?  ... yeah, thought so.

Adding to my levity will be that my teacher agreed that I could take the final early. So instead of taking my final on the Wednesday following the spring rafting trip (and stressing/worrying that I'm not studying for it), I'm taking it today, a week early. So there's stress in that I'm being tested on stuff she only just now covered this morning, but then again... I only need 21%

So cheers to all of you have suffered along with me in my quest that started back in the Spring of 2002 and listened to my ramblings.

To continue on to a Masters/Doctorate? Who knows... If I can convince the job to help pay for it, then it will be much easier for me to say yes, but for now: I NEED A BREAK!! River, here I come!!